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I have realized that I can feel very good around Dustin.  I am very happy with him and I see him as a handsome, attractive, smart person.  He is my soul mate.  I have found that I am quite a wonderful person too.  Dustin has helped me with that, by not impressing pressures upon me but simply by being himself, doing things that he likes to do, while in my presence, joking with me.

I have been relating and practicing deeply according to the lectures given by Akiva Tats, or at least what I have learned from him so far.  mainly that of giving privacy and space for my thoughts, principles, and love to myself and Dustin to develop with honoring silence.

I have been thinking about the things that I would like to develop inside myself.  For one, I am following more of the positive intentions that I have during the day.  Even if I don't know specifically what the action includes.  Sometimes I just have a feeling that this is what I want to do, and the thoughts are blurry, but the feeling is strong and clear.  Other times, I have a more concrete thought in my head of what I would like to do, although still a simple thought.. and I do it!  Following more of these intentions helps me keep relaxed with my experience. I feel like being with my husband is a sacred thing.. and also being with myself is a sacred thing.. and me being with myself makes my husband that much more enjoyable.  Expanding myself by following my intentions will give me more of the life I have been looking for.

So, part of these things that I do everyday are lifting weights, listening to akiva tats and learning kabbalistic teachings, and learning nonviolent communication to myself and others.  I feel I have more energy when I exercise.  Also, I think that watering, planting, taking on small projects for myself is increasingly rewarding and makes me feel like more of my own person.

Taking full responsibility for myself means that I take on projects that I would like to.. as soon as possible, and I follow through with the ideas or projects that I have thought about doing or have started.  

Also, when I speak nonviolently to myself, I have been gaining important insights that increase my happiness, feelings of peace, and calmness.

Dustin and I had sex this morning and I enjoyed it.